That's why I don't sell anything in my world. I just give you my observations and also snippets of my life.
Obviously I am immunologically capable but I'm not selling you protection. You can't protect people from life when it wants to live and you can't force people to manage life they are not conditioned for.
But relative to my husband he is far more immunologically capable than I am because he came into this world with a lot more to work from than I did. And when someone is cyclically closer to death you don't force them to do anything and make demands on them especially if they're suffering
and slavery is when you are so immunologically capable over somebody else and you're forcing them to perform at your level and you don't give a f*** if they die from your expectations so as long as your needs get met.
That's what slavery is..
and so the weakest person is now subjected to the strongest persons needs and wants in every family and you're going to watch the weakest person succumb to the strongest person in that family because the strongest person in every group situation gives no s**** about anyone else but themselves until they are subjected to being taken down by the environment and then they finally realize how f****** a****** they were
and so that's why I also walked away from the health and wellness industry because I'm not ending your life or aiming to end your suffering and I'm not going to make you suffer and force you to eat food you are not conditioned to eat. So there's nothing to sell.
So there's nothing to sell. There's no beauty product to sell and there's no muscles and face and galavanting to sell anyone. You can't protect people from the life they're not conditioned to live.
They have to condition to live the life in their world or they don't have what it takes and either they may have to change the way they do things OR THEY outright f****** die trying to keep up with the strongest person in the crowd
Yo it was bad last night. Even parts of my arms were tender but I'm used to it now. I'm literally used to being in pain now because it is different for everybody because of where people hold the most weakness. Where the most repairs reside.
So now all I do is just feed the sickness and feed the energy with food and that's all I can do and then release at around 3:00 to 4:00 in the morning. And then everything is good and if it's that urgent I'll release in the afternoon and it will still be good. All pain is the body trying to release demons in a highly influential environment.
It's pretty insane but that's the world we live in today. I'm serious you guys you must get used to being sick and change the way you do things and be in a safe place to be sick. But if you don't want to be sick then people start taking food away and so the body eats itself alive and they feel no pain until the body can't help but be in pain because there's nothing else to eat and the person can't feed themselves and the body has depleted itself
That's why I said figure out where you want to end up for at least 5 years and you know it's geographically geologically and climatologically safe because at some point when you get taken down you can't resist it or else you might die.
And I wouldn't even say it sickness because I don't look at it as sickness anymore because sickness implies that there are more days of not being sick than sick.
And so what it is, is it's getting used to the life and the energy that my immune system emits and radiates out. And when I'm in pain I feed it all the food in the food supply and then usually the next morning I'll release the demons.
And that's been a pretty tried and true pattern in my world and it works. I know I'll be in pain for at least half a day if it's that bad and then the next morning I'll get relief until the engines rev up again towards the morning or afternoon
And so I was in bed like half the day but I knew I needed to make dinner and I had deer steaks out defrosting. I wanted to make something creative and something different because I'm sure my husband gets tired of mashed potatoes. So I decided to make risotto.
And I knew that the deer steaks needed a different flavor as well because how many times can you eat deer steaks with the same garlic pepper and salt and maybe olive oil or Worcestershire sauce. So I got creative and figured out I still had spinach and I had milk and had parmesan cheese and I had colby jack cheese and I had all the different spices and I had rice and I had those spice packets from Top Ramen.
And so during that evening one of my neighbors came by and visited just to wish us a happy Christmas and New Year and all that and to catch up for a second and I was In the process of making the risotto and I was loud and so boisterous because the energy was just producing such force.
And that's how I channeled the excessive radioactive energy that was given to me by my environment. Even when I was in so much pain and I couldn't sleep a couple months ago I would just type, even if it was painful I would keep typing and let the creativity be catalyzed by the radioactive energy my arms were giving off..
I used that painful energy to develop creativity as well as to convert food into vital organs and retention and release. I welcome the pain if I have to deal with it. Because I know what I have to do to survive it and there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. The pain does end at some point
And so my routine when I'm in extreme amounts of pain because of the environment is using the food rest release creativity and not resisting any pain or suffering.
And so yes I was up at 3:00 a.m. this morning to release my demons took a shower and I feel great and completely awake.
And that's my world and I like the simplicity of it because when you have to deal with repair and retention and release you don't want to deal with anything more that you don't have to.
I also finished the series of the Vikings or the Vikings of Valhalla. Wow history is so f****** amazing. And so this is the time in my world to study everything because I have the time to and I have the desire to.
And when you set your life up to just deal with your sickness and educating yourself that's the advancement of humanity. Some people will still keep the infrastructure going and we thank them for their service such as people like my husband.
Other people have the luxury to stay home stay safe and deal with the simple things in life such as food rest pain and suffering and longevity. And those who keep the infrastructure going I hope you get paid very well for what you're doing because you are sacrificing a lot of things to do that.
And so people like my husband are like rare gems.
They give people like me a chance to live.
Suffering to live takes an extremely strategic situation that you build yourself. The strategy of life is designing the world you want to live in regardless of what others do out there even the people right next to you.
It might be harder to design the life you want to live with somebody else working against you but eventually they won't work against you when they realize how much freedom they get if they are relatively independent themselves or they have other people they can hang out with.
And there's nothing wrong with spending days apart even in the same house. You don't have to live on top of someone all the time in order to prove you have a relationship.
The freedom to be apart is how any relationship can sustain itself.. I've never seen any relationship survive suffocation from either partner
And I know other people in other relations don't understand that because they live on top of each other and that's their whole life is to live on top of each other so they don't understand how my husband and I can still stay together and still function apart.
We have nothing in our house that comes between us except for the walls that we choose when it's appropriate.
The people he hangs out with are f****** respectful and they don't get in between our relationship. That's extremely important is when your partner's friends are not thrusting themselves in your world and they give you space and let you do what you need to do. Nobody's making demands on anyone and no one's making snide comments to you about your relationship with with them.
We had our own lives before we met each other. You can still be independent and your own person and be also in a relationship that works with division of labor.
If you find yourself changing so much even in a relationship you don't have to throw away the relationship.
You are allowed to change in any relationship but you're going to have to prove how much suffering you undergo when you live another person's lifestyle and belief system.
And if the other person gives a s*** about you they won't want to put you in a situation causing you suffering.
And that takes a lot of time and suffering and resilience to suffering to prove to people around you that if you don't change you'll f****** die.
And so being in any relationship with someone is far more immunologically stronger than you will be extremely difficult to prove that you need to do something different or walk the f*** away.
And luckily my husband saw what I had to deal with the last 3 years when I went out in public a lot. And he saw the hives and he saw the spots and he saw the rashes and he saw how much my shoulders were in pain like they they were yesterday and then he had to deal with his own back pain for a whole week a few weeks ago and when the climate changes he feels it.
He doesn't say too much but I know he feels it. When I feel it he'll start feeling it. Both of us pretty much suffer in silent because what's the point. If it's that bad then we'll see what we say but we know at this point this is part of our world. We are adapting to it. We have no other choice or f****** die
He understood now where I was coming from. I'm not under the influence or drugged and I don't want to be in order to live somebody else's lifestyle.
And it's going to take a lot of negotiating of your own life to impress upon the people around you you have to do things differently if you want to survive but if that's not where you want to go then don't worry about it.
Fighting for your own life even in a close-knit relationship will take everything you have and remember there is no one way to prove your love and devotion to somebody else.
Men and women think certain events and practices prove their love to the other person and I'm going to say love and devotion comes out in so many different ways. When someone cooks for you and does your laundry and makes your coffee and make sure that you're okay that's the love that's more than just depleting someone of their immunological sexual or financial resources.
When you want to feed somebody and cook for them you're showing so much f****** love for them. When you take care of yourself so they don't have to worry about you you're showing so much love for that person so they have the freedom to take care of themselves.
Don't force them to make a choice. I don't want anyone in my world to be a martyr for me.
You can show your love and devotion in ways that doesn't deplete and destroy the person. There are other ways of showing love and devotion without destroying the other person for your benefit and pleasure..
And that's why I don't hardly spend any money because I want to give my husband the opportunity to scale down his lifestyle when he's ready and we don't have to sell the farm in order to do that.
That's why you don't mortgage both people because eventually you might have to live on one income because the other person has to take time to do what they need to do whatever it is.
Going into this next world you must be financially strategic to survive especially you have a partner or a husband or a wife.
Sickness has taken down many families and died suddenly has destroyed many families because you see all the GoFundMe accounts all over Facebook when somebody dies.
When people don't prepare for the worst they are relegated to a beggar and you don't want to ever put your family in that kind of position to beg on internet to bury someone or to get their kids through college or something.
The last 5 years was a lesson in relationship and resilience and suffering to live.
Men and women who are so immunologically capable need to understand not everyone was built like YOU. Don't scoff or be a s*** head to people who have to find ways to survive you.
And stop calling people lazy because when it's your turn and your ass is being taken down buy something , do you want somebody calling your ass f****** lazy???
The deception of immunologically capable men and women as well as decrepit men and women selling you a lifestyle and a dream in this f***** up world right now is so apparent and watching people eat up everything they put out there buying whatever protection or daily affirmation is reminiscent of the 1960s cult Revolution Christian Revival
The deception of immunologically capable men selling you a dream is exactly what it is it is a deception. Immunologically people or men like my husband who are built like a brick shithouse can sell you whatever they want because they can do it because they have the substance to do it.
That's why I don't trust and buy anything from people who are so decrepit and dying and who are so f****** capable immunologically. Whatever they're selling you is either causing you to overextend yourself and then destroy yourself or just outright destroy yourself.
The weak and the strong can sell people anything they want because people who don't have discernment will buy from a very weak person and buy from a very strong person thinking that whatever they're selling is going to make them strong.
It's such a paradox out there and when I woke up to it little by little progressively the last 2 years I realized I was turning into the very thing I was against. I was trying to be a cult and trying to be a savior..
Now I just make observations and I deliver all sides and I have no issue with Bill Gates or anyone else. I understand why people hated me and I don't blame you because the uncured lifestyle is new but someone had to rip off the Band-Aid at some point. I guess it was me..
And just so you know I only do this to relieve my own stress and give people something else to observe and make choices from. You can make your own conclusions you can draw your own conclusions you can call me a f****** liar cuz it doesn't even matter. I'm not making any guarantees I'm not selling you a f****** dream. You can't sell people life they are not conditioned to live
And so if suffering is being sober in a diverse group situation then being sober in a diverse group situation is suffering to me.
Respect it
And so in this climate to be part of society you are forced to be under the influence of something. Or else you will suffer unless you pull yourself away from the diverse situation and deal with the suffering you hold within and release it and then you don't want to be out there again taking on more suffering. You will remember what it's like suffering to release those f****** demons.
And extremely capable people who've never had to suffer really in their life will f****** spit on you because they don't understand and they don't give a s*** until they have to f****** suffer.
That's why the Giants were eradicated because they had no frame of reference what it's like to be enslaved by something larger and bigger so the environment took down the Giants because they were f****** assholes
And so the only way the world will change is when the strongest man gets taken to his knees so he understands what he's done to the weakest man of our society and then maybe our society will change but until then right now the strongest men and women will f****** spit on the weakest person in their society and hate anyone who introduces change so they can survive.
That's the slavery system when strong people spit on weak people because the weak people wanted to save themselves.
But Jillian, if you're not strong enough don't make a system dumb itself down for you.
Oh I don't I walk the f*** away.. and I change the way I do s*** and I'll let the strong man get taken down by the environment because they have no idea what the f*** I had to deal with and they don't give a s***
And that's what I had to deal with my whole f****** life was trying to survive people who were so much more immunologically and spiritually and intellectually more capable than i was at the time and I was spit on left and right by everybody ..
And I'm not mad that was just my experience.
Yes I missed your daughters and sons birthday parties and if I did show up I didn't bring a socially acceptable gift . I mean how could I afford a socially acceptable gift when you have to call in sick so you can recover from working so hard the two weeks prior so I can put food on the table and pay the rent and the utilities and car insurance and car payments. You're f****** kids birthday present is least my stupid worries.
My presence alone should have been enough. But nope materialistic people give a s*** about no one but themselves and they raise materialistic spoiled little materialistic children who don't give a s*** about anyone but themselves and they will do harm to someone if they don't get what they want.. and then they turn into adults who will enslave somebody else to death even their own family
People don't give a s*** they don't care about you, they want your f****** money and your gifts and to be socially acceptable. People don't give a f*** about you AT ALL.
They don't care you had to pull yourself out of bed just to show up to your stupid kid's birthday party. Big f****** deal.
Spoiled children anyways
and yes I did call in sick at least once a month.
That was my f****** survival so f*** you laugh out loud
and so I said
f*** all of you
go to hell and I left California and I left Society never to return again. The world has changed..
And California is definitely changing. It's not safe to go back there now. Too many things are going on in this world to travel that far.
The system had to change the climate so the assholes in our society get a taste of their own medicine when they get taken down by the changes.
And so me selling sobriety is like a 250 lb man trying to get 100 lb guy to work at the level that he works at.
So I can't even sell sobriety.. and maybe unintentionally I was selling sobriety but even that you can't sell to people. I'm telling you, the programming of selling a lifestyle and a belief system is so deep.. but I have to represent it but it doesn't mean that you must do what I do or think that's the only way because it's not.
But I can represent a blueprint to sobriety regardless if you think I'm sober or not. I can develop a definition of a thousand percent sobriety
And that's why slavery is so insidious because you have extremely strong men forcing weak people to perform at their level. And that's why I also weep for the children because they're forced to perform at levels that they're probably not conditioned for and the conditioning process is brutal.
And so you feel bad for the kids because they're subject to so much and you hope they survive it. You hope they survived the treatments and you hope they survive the family's lifestyle and belief system and their peer group
We have men destroying women and we have men destroying other men through love through hatred through relationship through expectations and if you can't make it occupationally in your job get the f*** out because your job will destroy you. Don't expect a job to dumb itself down for you..
And that's why the children are the slaves of our society because they're forced into situations they have no control over.. and just because they came from your genetic line doesn't mean they have what it takes to perform at the level that you are performing
remember every single time you reproduce something it loses intelligence and strength and energy. And so these kids are in such deficit in a highly highly accelerated environment and that's why a lot of them are dying suddenly because the parents are forcing them to perform at levels before climate change and they don't have what it takes..
And so I think in my opinion parents overextend their children and these children are like dogs and they will die for their parents or their owners to please them or resist them and sometimes the kids turn on their parents because the discipline was way too much for the environment
And my milk intake was like getting the nutrition that was missing when I came into this world and what I was missing the last 50 years. The meat intake and the carbs and everything as well as staying home and staying safe allowed my body to rebuild and release.
When you've been closer to death your whole life you will cherish life and must do everything to survive and become extremely strategic.
Those who are so strong take for granted their strength. Believe me I wish I can go walk into a huge baseball stadium and watch a ball game without knowing I'm going to suffer the next day releasing those demons.
I envy them but I also know their day is coming too. My day came way back in 1999 and it was survival ever since...
Everyone's day is coming when they finally realize the gifts that were given to them only last so long and they will have to suffer to live or die.
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